So blessed

Has the reality that your life isn't that bad, ever bitch slapped you in the face? Well it just did it to me!

Let me start off by saying I don't think I live a bad life, infact I'm overly blessed and I realize it more and more! But you know sometimes your kids make you crazy or your husband and you have a fight or you had a bad day at work and it really gets you down! Well this afternoon I was watching Season 6 of "The secret life of the American teenager"( yes, and I love it so shush!) Well the last episode Adrian is pregnant with a baby girl and ends up having a still born. This is where the Bitch slap starts!

How many times have I been overly annoyed with my boys? How many times have I "joked" about shipping them off? How many times have our days not gone perfectly? The answer to all of the questions...too many times! 

Drew and I were extremely blessed to become pregnant quickly with both our boys,and have full term pregnancy(yet again another thing I would complain about because of being uncomfortable) while I saw friends and family try for months on end or they got pregnant and lost the baby. A pain and a feeling I will never understand because I haven't been there personally. 

I'm very emotional when it comes to my boys, they are my everything! I live and breath for them! Everything Drew and I do is for them! So why does it take seeing , even on tv, someone loosing a baby to make me realize this, make me hold them close to me, crying, praising God for them and there healthy bodies? I have no idea! I guess I often saw/see ourselves as invisible, as I'm sure many others do too, but there's one thing I've learned, sickness, death, anger, hate, they see everyone, no one is safe! I need to actually remember that though! I need to remember to hold them close and praise God for them EVERYDAY!!!

Today was a small reminder of how short life can be, how things don't always go the way they should. That even though some days the boys drive me up the wall, I am blessed! And I should never take advantage of that! And I'm hoping I can remind others of that too, hug your kids, your spouse, your grandparents, whoever it is hug them! Remind them no matter what you love them!